I remember it vividly. Sitting at my work-station. My heart pounding. Sweat beaded down my face. I sat frozen in front of the computer screen as my mind whirled and my inner voice of panic grew louder and louder.
“I did it. I really did it. I resigned. Oh. My. God! OH MY GOD! Did I really just resign? I resigned! Oh my God, I can’t take this back. I’m really giving it all up in full pursuit of a music and writing career, to live the life I’ve dreamed of.”
My body was abuzz with excitement but trust me I was scared beyond belief!!
My mind took me on a not-so positive journey. One filled with concerns, worries and doubt. My heart rate intensified as I began think and worrying about finances and my ability to maintain the life I had grown accustomed to. To pay my bills; my rent. What if it doesn’t work out? What if I didn’t earn enough and I had to give up my apartment, ask a friend to move in, sell my stuff… why give up a steady attractive income for a risk? For a Gamble?!
But my fear and those scary questions were quieted with this one thought “What if it all works out?”
With this thought came more counter positive thoughts: “What if I use the fear of all of these horrible possible outcomes to light a fire within myself, to ensure I work as hard as I can, to go above and beyond, to find the opportunities that exist? What if I use my determination to not let any of those fears become a reality to push me further? Don’t I believe in myself? My talent? My ability? Aren’t I and my dreams of living the life I’ve always imagined worth the Gamble? Worth the Risk? Don’t I trust that I have within me everything I need in order to achieve what I desire?
Beautiful Dreamer, it’s now 8 months since I personally took what the biggest leap of my life—to date anyway. And I can’t tell you that those 8 months have not had any difficult times, or times when I was not wrought with worry or concern. Truthfully if I have to be totally honest with you, as I write at this very moment I’m in a worrywart phase. But I can adamantly and vehemently tell you that I do not regret taking that leap–not one bit! Without doubt, over the past 8 months I have felt the most fulfilled than I have ever truly felt, because I have been actively working towards achieving a dream and a passion that burns deeply within my soul.
Moreover, so much—oh so much—has happened beyond my wildest dreams and plans over those 8 months. For example who would have thought I would have been a featured published writing contributor, sharing my advice and experience, in a book project by a 5-time Grammy Winning Producer and Music Professional, Devine Evans, entiled “Sheet Music: The Diary of A Songwriter. Or that I would have been an official part of a Pre-Grammy event in Hollywood? Acting on stage, even if it was for a few minutes? And singing in a choir that backed up Janelle Monae’s girl group?
Now, imagine if I had let fear get the better of me 8 months ago? I’m almost certain that half of these wonderful experiences and opportunities which I have had over the past 8 months would have not been a reality. Rather, it’s more likely that I’d be sitting at my workstation, still dreaming of the what-if.
It is indeed true that in order to achieve the extraordinary you must be willing to take that leap. And when you do it will open up a host of possibilities and opportunities you wouldn’t even have thought of!
Beautiful Dreamer, trust me when I say: When you finally decide to take that Leap, you will be amazed just how much and how far you will Soar!
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